plans for tomorrow

[harshhoneymoon]

well its church for what feels like most of the day unfortunately. the formal services were a nice change of pace for a few months but now its just such a drag. part of me wants to go back to our old megachurch with my little brother but i dont want to abandon my mom. she's in a hard period already.
feeling like laura palmer rn. how to disappear.

i think i have an over inflated ego and i hate it and at the same time i hate myself so its just self absorption. i think im such a nothing person, particularly unintelligent. theres nothing i can contribute that someone else also can, and at a better degree. i want that lana del rey life.